It's about just sort of tying your heartstrings off — not allowing yourself to be vulnerable." PHOTOS: Gossip Girl — then and now!Now happily married to Adam Brody, Meester said the record was inspired by a split she endured years ago.

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Joker.'" She failed to mention names, but there are a few Hollywood hunks she could be referring to. "I want a family someday," Meester told the magazine, long before she married Brody in a top-secret ceremony in 2014.

"I think there is someone out there for me," she mused to Fast-forwarding to 2014, Meester reflected that her new album was a more accurate reflection of her growth — in her personal life and career.

"It's more about coming to realize — especially growing up (and I feel like I've done a lot of that the last couple of years) — a juxtaposition between my day job and [my music career]," she attempted to explain on Tuesday. But I'm just desperately lonely,'" she reflected of her past.

"No matter what you're going through, you have to embody another character," she said specifically of portraying Blair Waldorf. A., and being like, ' Oh look, I'm an adult. "So thats what that's about." As for life after ?

"The song ' Heartstrings' is really special to me," said Meester, 28, who looked pretty after being primped by Dream Dry and Caption Nails.

"It's really more of a very visual: It represents the feeling of the rest of the record.It's about hiding your feelings and smiling and pretending that you're happy when you're not.Actually, I'd say that it represents most of the record, because that's what it's about."Which can be fun, but it also can be tiring." PHOTOS: Costar couples Along with ' Heartstrings,' Meester said another single, ' L. "It seems like an instant and a million years [ago]," said Meester.A.,' represented a time in her 20s when things were very surface. "A lot has happened, mostly good." PHOTOS: How celeb couples first met For the multi-hyphenate, singing and songwriting has been a deeply "personal" process."It sounds really happy, and it's really sort of sweet — poppy, chimey and light — even the lyrics seem like it's about something kind of nice," she said of the single. "When you're acting, especially if you have any bit of recognition, all you ever do is try not to talk about your personal life and that's all people want to talk about," Meester said. As much as it's about my specific circumstances, I try and put it into words that hopefully other people understand.